So I started the year off in Dubai. It seems like a lifetime ago on one hand and
the blink of an eye on the other! I didn’t
realise of course that I was about to step onto a short emotional
rollercoaster. I took the job primarily
(like so many others) due to the lure of some financial security, which I
craved due to the unsecure financial world that is our beautiful yoga or any
alternative and artistic avenue.
This place is out of this world, like everywhere there is
yin and yang, good and bad. Blue skies
and constant sun shine every day works, it’s sooooo safe; don’t think I’ve ever
experienced a safer place as of yet, my studio apartment is very ‘Carrie, Sex
in the City’ only I have more or a kitchen than she did, thankfully, as I actually
use it to cook in not store my clothes haha still love that program! I’m a five minute walk to everywhere I need
to get to, work, the mall, a supermarket and coffee house, mind you that could be
ten to fifteen minutes if you’re left waiting on the lift or get stuck waiting
on the traffic lights to change to get pedestrian crossing, they definitely
need to work on that! BUT otherwise the place is simply soulless to me!
I felt my own soul literally cry out not to be there, it
happened in the blink of an eye when a conversation with the yoga studio shook
me and woke me up. The terms of my teaching were suddenly changing and they
wanted to direct me to teach their way as in a more physical practice making it
harder and stronger, more aerobic than yoga and this isn’t me, it’s not where I
am, what I believe and what I do. This could work out very well for someone
else of course but not for me and I simply wasn’t willing to sell my soul. So I said NO!
Not once but a few times. This
led to a bigger issue of course so my ‘plan’ for the year ahead at least was
being thrown into complete disarray.
Although this was a little uncomfortable for me and of course the studio
it was more important to me to do what was true to me, this is self-love, this
is following our path.
This move cost me money which is an upset but not the most
important thing and I trust this is all happening for my and others higher
goods. Initially taking this job felt so
right so I followed along with that feeling but something definitely shifted quite
quickly and I felt it strongly right at that first conversation about teaching
this hot, fast, don’t breathe, don’t stop, just move intensive exercise type
class and suddenly it felt so right not to be there. So like a few of my dear soul friends bit or a rollercoaster start to 2016 but we
know this is all happening for something so much bigger. I’m
happy, I’m at complete peace with it (which is such a wonderful feeling), I’m
healthy, I’ve the love of my self, my family, my friends and God, my lovely Mam
and all my beautiful angels and guides supporting me from the other side. I am back in my deeply soulful home country
and patiently excited to see what the universe has in store for me next (bearing
in mind I’ve explained to the universe I’m staying put!) I am truly grateful.
Be true to you
Let your light shine on J